I Just Want My Cupcake

 Dear Diary,

I was speaking to someone recently about my season of singleness. I was trying to explain to them what the wait actually felt like to me. So, I used this analogy that I want to share with you. 

The waiting is like when we were in elementary school and someone had a birthday. They would bring cupcakes for everyone in the class so we could celebrate together. As a member of class, you knew that there was a cupcake for you. As the birthday boy or girl was handing out the cupcakes, you patiently waited for the moment when you could enjoy that rush of sugary goodness. But you’re in the back of the class, so you have to wait till the people in the front get their cupcakes. As you are waiting, you are watching the other students take large bites of their cupcakes, lick the frosting, slowly peel back the paper and you know yours is coming but watching others enjoy theirs only makes you long for your turn that much more. 

That is what the wait feels like. You know that there is a cupcake for you. But you are watching others enjoy theirs while you patiently wait for yours. Of course, you are happy that the others get to eat their snack, but that doesn’t take away from the fact that you want one too.    

When I was explaining this to the person, they took my analogy and ran with it (I like when people engage with my parables). She asked me if it mattered to me that all the other students got their cupcakes early so they’d be done by the time I had mine and so soon they would all have to watch me enjoy mine.  I thought about that for a moment, considered it thoughtfully. Then I said, I actually don’t care if anyone watches me enjoy my cupcake. I just want mine. The truth is, I don’t need an audience, I just want my person. Can’t wait till I get my cupcake. 

Love,

THE CHRISTIAN SINGLE WOMAN