Eavesdrop on My Daydream

Dear Diary,

I’ve been thinking about my future husband. More like daydreaming I guess. What will he be like? What will his voice sound like? How will our first encounter go? Will I be all feisty as usual or will I be uncharacteristically smitten? Will he approach me right away or will he have watched me for a while?

There are only a few times where I actually allow myself to think about it. What he’ll wear or how he will smell. The smile, the eyes. I don’t really allow myself to think about too much because I live in the land of romantic comedies that skew the perspectives of unsuspecting females with their ridiculously high expectations and unrealistic ideas of what romance, love and chemistry look like. But I can admit it to you, yes just like every other female, I want the fairytale or at least some version of it. But I’m also a realist. And more than the fairytale, I want a friend, a partner, a lifetime companion. I want someone who can make me laugh and let me cry. Who makes me look at the world differently and helps me see what  I need to see whether I want to or not. I want someone who will pray with me and seek God for me. Who will speak the truth in wisdom and love. Who will fiercely protect me and his children. Who will love me unconditionally even when I don’t look the best. Who will tell me I’m beautiful because he doesn’t just see me on the outside but he actually looks into my heart and soul. I want a man that I can verbally spar with, who is witty and clever. Who won’t put up with my random tantrums and can reign me in. Frankly, I just want to meet my match. Where is that guy?

There are times that I wonder if he even exists, or if he will ever find me. It’s just one of those days, that I’ve been thinking. Such nice thoughts right? But you want to know the crazy thing. I think I’m already in love with my husband and I haven’t even met him yet. I’m so excited to meet my happily ever after. The man God designed just for me. I can’t wait to touch him, hold him, kiss him, minister with him, serve him and love him. But for now I will have to wait. And only share my thoughts with you.

Love,

THE CHRISTIAN SINGLE WOMAN