Small Changes Take Too Long

 Dear Diary,

I’ve asked a million times why can’t I just wake up skinny? I’ve questioned why can’t I just be financially astute immediately? Or why can’t I become spiritually mature and full of faith overnight? Everything just seems to take so long!!!! This life, this journey to be fulfilled and at a place where I am complete, why does it take so long to get there?

Daily, I have to exercise; pushing my body to the absolute limit and eating a reduced amount of calories, that, let’s face it only make me more cranky, to only lose what, 3lbs a week? God is preparing me for marriage, or so that is what everyone keeps telling me (although sometimes I wonder if it is just the pity answer) but it’s been years. God is teaching me lessons about compromise, communication and love and yet He still won’t bring the hubby. Seriously, what is taking so long?

My devotion today was about victory one step at a time. Gradual change creates a more lasting change they said. So I wonder, is quick change the best kind of change. And if I “changed” all at once, could I even handle all of that “perfection.” Sometimes I think God doesn’t allow us to mature all at once because we wouldn’t be able to handle it. My boss and my dad are always telling me that the journey is where you develop the character to deal with life’s ups and downs. So I guess while it is difficult, frustrating and sometimes infuriating to wait this out or go through the process. The long journey for me will give me the lasting change I’ve always wanted. Something to think about.

Love,

THE CHRISTIAN SINGLE WOMAN